I'm thankful...
that even with all the change, the Lord's love will never change. I can turn away, and He will welcome me with open arms. His grace is sufficient.
The past 6 months I've been in the trauma/neurosurgery ICU and it's a daily reality check. Do I play more "movies" now regarding the worst of the worst happening? Of course I do, I think it's just the reality of working in the ICU and seeing even worse than you can imagine everyday.
But then I have to remember, the Lord is in control. He works out everything for the good for those that love Him. Sometimes, that means breaking you of everything you hold so dear so you will have to trust Him. And sometimes, just sometimes, I have the courage to pray that prayer--Lord, break me.
"Ruin Me" by Jeff Johnson:
Ruin me, I am unclean
A sinner found in your presence
I see you, seated on Your throne
Exalted, Your glory surrounds You
Now the plans that I have made
Fail to compare
When I see Your glory
Ruin my life, the plans that I've made
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain
Destroy the idols that have taken Your place
'Till it's You ALONE I live for, You alone I live for
Such a hard prayer, but it's the only way. Those of you that know me well know I'm such a planner. I have a plan for my life. However, I know that the Lord's plans are better. A verse in Proverbs says that in his heart a man plans his steps, but it's the Lord's purpose that prevails. Praise the Lord.
